It hurts STILL sometimes at this point knowing that you cannot talk much to your parents because it will spiral down to bad arguments eventually. But I have come to accept that as long as my parents refused to change, there is nothing much I can do on my end anyway.
I just tell myself this serves as my motivation to constantly try to apply for every single round of public housing exercise by the government. This year, 2016, will be the year when I finally get my own place. And I will work as long as the job and the boss is not overbearing to save enough to pay once and for all.
I was actually feeling hurt but I remembered from the “Purpose of Life” book written by Ven. Dr K Sri Dhammananda that the purpose of our lives on earth is to do some good. The purpose of our lives is to render service to others.
So, suddenly an idea came to my mind: I have always wanted to do something for others anonymously. However (it sounds very strange to pen this down) but charities always like to do events that surround fundraising, exhibitions etc. The activities that really can help others are far and few. Even international charities such as Red Cross and World Vision are either looking for donations or volunteers who can attend such events as a first aider. I have been looking and reaching out to so many charities over the past two years but no one came back to me except asking for monetary donations.
Do not get me wrong. These are good activities for the communities. But I do sincerely wish that I could do something really useful to help those who really need help within my abilities. I do not have that much money nor time to go on mission trips to help the poor (because I am saving for my own roof and now a master degree to explore a career switch within my new company), but I can provide emotional help.
I can write letters of encouragement, or simply just a letter to share with someone who feels lonely and thinks that no one cares about him. I understand how that feels. Sometimes just a letter can help at the moment when one might really make the wrong move and turn to suicide. I know that and have been there before. This is something that I can do, i.e. to offer emotional support from a distance.
Hence I hope if you are reading this blog, please tell me whom you wish me to write a letter to anyone, or even yourself, just to lend some positive support. All I need is a little background information of the recipient of the letter and the mailing address.
Mental illness and emotional hurt erode us much faster than anything illness constantly, yet all it receives from the society are mockery and disdain, that we should grow up and handle our emotions properly. This is wrong.
I shall stop sitting here or relying on waiting for others to create a project for me to help. I shall create my own project to help a cause that is close to my heart. I shall name this campaign #letterofpositivity.
Please support me.