WHAT HAVE I BEEN DOING ALL THESE WHILE???

As I read more and more about Buddhism and its concept, I felt very regretful for wasting so much of my time in the past. I should have preserve in attending the dharma class when I first signed up. Now, everything speaks to me. I feel that this was right and yet I have little time. I do know that I could extend the time if I want to, and Buddhism is not in favour of my decision. But that is the only thing that I will not compromise or change my mind. It is like the anchor that gave me the strength to live on for the past close to five years.

But there are so many things that I want to do that I feel that I should dedicate one week in October after leaving this job to study more while I could. I feel at peace. Like I am one step closer to that peace and tranquility that I felt in my sunflower dream. I want to practise more meditation but within a short period of time. I need to now.